Ooh excited

So, after a frustrating hour and a half in traffic I made it to the ART specialist to check out my arm. And boy did the frustration melt away after only a few minutes. He was able to diagnose the problem straight away and get to work immediately. Some scar tissue build up in my tricep and a big ball of something at the head of my front delt were the culprits. When he worked on the shoulder, I was in pain and still feel it now, but I get to work out tomorrow so I am excited. So much so I've been thinking all day about what exercises I will do. "I'll do machine rows, and bent over rows, and cable rows..." teeheehee

The obstacle of the moment now is reconciling the fact that I, one of the guys-no need to focus on appearance-definitely no girly girl Pandora, am doing a bikini competition. It's the final hurdle. It's the one that I need to clear before I can truly embrace this journey.

So, for the next nine weeks I will focus only on me-- my training, my diet, my goal. No distractions. No attention to nay-sayers. No negativity.

"I will be a bikini competitor on November 13, 2010. I will look as best as I can. I will work hard in the coming weeks to achieve this goal as it will be more than just a strut on a stage in a bikini; it will be the light after more than a decade of darkness in body, mind and spirit."